Assalamualaikum wr wb ~

Long distance relationship makes me sick. Actually, I don't wanna be like this anymore. But karena masih harus tanggung jawab ama amanah ortu untuk nyelesain kuliah di jurusan Bahasa Inggris, I have to finish it. Lagian juga janjiku kan pengen bikin suami n kluarga besar bangga karena istri n anak yang manja + lucu n imut ini udah bisa bertanggung jawab ama apa yang aku pilih *ssehhh

Honestly, aku udah gak sanggup buat long distance ama suami. Secara udah merit. Beda waktu masih pacaran. Yahh, bagi kamu yang udah nikah pasti tau laah alasannya kenapa. N' bagi kamu yang belum nikah ampe sekarang, cepat lah nikah. Jadi tau gimana rasanya kalo berjauhan (emang ada yang mau berjauhan? kagak ada deh!).

Just for information, aku lagi tahap nyelesain chapter 4 n' 5. N' it's mean aku udah mau pendadaran. Yeah, didadar ama dosen2ku. Setelah itu wisuda. Just for information again, Iam not foolish girl, I mean a woman (I've got married! I know). Bukan berarti aku belum lulus ampe sekarang karena aku punya otak pentium 1. BUKAN. Tapi karena dosen2ku pengen aku lebih yakin ama judul yang kuambil. So, kami harus 2thn berkutat ama jurnal2 luar negeri. Huft. Honestly, Im sick of it. Coba aja mereka tau kalo kami pengen cepet lulus n kerja. Pengen cepet bahagiain kluarga besar. Ck.

Katanya kalo setelah nikah pintu rejeki terbuka lebar. Allah swt udah menjanjikan itu semua. Tapi aku pengen pas ada rejeki, aku ada disamping suamiiiiiiiiii *nangisbombay* 

Kemarin ada temen sewaktu SMP nanyain di bbm: kuat banget sih berjauhan saae~ Jawabku: mau gak mau sae. Soalnya harus nyelesain kuliah dulu. N program baby ntar aja setelah lulus. Amiiinnn~

Ngenes banget.

So, kalo ada temen2 jaman skolah dulu nikah cuman suamiku yang datang, tanpa aku. Apalagi sekarang lagi musim kawin. Bukan musim rambutan atau duren. Ck. Padahal kan pengen juga ke acara nikahan ama suami tercinta. Yeah, sempat sekali datang ke acara nikahan sih. How does it feel? It was great!

Oya, wanna know about me? Please follow ma instagram Oldrakarlinda_afandi or wanna know me more, please check ma facebook, too O'ol Alexandria de Dodolz. Yeaayyy~

Assalamualaikum wr wb ~

Hi, long time no write in this blog. Im sooo miss it. Lama gak nulis jadi agak canggung mau mulai dari mana. Hehehe. Hmm, gimana kalo mulai dari kabarku yah? Ok. So far, Im fine right now. Still with ma thesis deadline. What about you guys? May Allah swt always gives you healthiness. Amin. So, from now on ma status is wife. Popeye's wife, Fery's wife actually. How does it feel? Ehm, great! I still don't believe that Iam his wife now. Yeah, I slept with him if you ask it. Hahaha.

Namanya juga pengantin baru, kemana-mana pengen berdua, kemana-mana pengen romantisan. Tapi ada saatnya pikiran kita gak sejalan. Yeah, marriage. But when we got through it all, it's feel like sweet, like candies. Marriage is not about bunch up two different side, but marriage about give and take. Give everything the best we have, and take everything the best couple has. That's it.

Menuju pernikahan itu selalu ada permasalahan. Small or big. But we have through it all. Sooner or later we will face it. But we have to be strong. It's marriage. It's sacred bond. We are not kid anymore. So am I. Im happy being his wife right now, and I hope it will be like this forever.

Marriage is beginning. Beginning to open new book, and to open new window. But I luv it.

Bahagia rasanya ketika aku bangun duluan dan mencium pipinya yang agak kempes itu (kurusan gara-gara cari duit). Kebiasaan seminngu lebih dikit setelah acara wedding kami itu. Hahaha. Katanya aku bukan cewek romantis lho, kata suamiku. Tapi setelah nikah, baru tau dia *baikinponisambiltersenyumsinis* Yeah, aku terlalu bahagia jadi bagian hidupnya sekarang. Maklum, pengantin baru. But, I have to back on ma schedule, thesis. So, setelah acara seminggu aku balik ke Samarinda, nyelesain skripsi. Gimana rasanya? Sakit. Yeah, beneran sakit. Suamiku datang ke Samarinda untuk pertama kali sambil nyetir mobil sendiri. Bayangin, sendiri. Alone. OMG. But, Allah loves him, jadi beliau selalu dilindungin perjalanannya menuju Samarinda. Tiga hari di Samarinda, bikin sakitku berkurang. Yeah, homesick. Buktinya waktu suami mau pulang ke Batulicin lagi subuh itu, aku mewek dulu. Yeah, pengantin baru. Hahaha.

Sekarang umur pernikahanku udah 2 bulan lebih 3 hari. I miss him so hard. Bayangin, pacaran long distance relationship selama 3 tahun lebih, trus nikah juga gitu. Sakitnya tuh disini~ *Gubrak! But, I hope I will be together with him right away.

Luv u, ma husband

 
Kalo boleh dibalikin ke hari Sabtu tanggal 02 Agustus 2014 kemaren, mungkin aku balikin deh. Supaya lebih baek lagi. But because of I am nobody, jadi lah apa adanya. Pasti bingung kenapa aku ngomong gak jelas gini kan? You're wrong, guys. Biasa lah namanya juga mau ngadain acara besar, pasti ada aja permasalahan yang muncul. Big wedding. Big day. Special day.

Sebelum acara 'hantaran' pun adaaaa aja masalah yang muncul. Bikin kepalaku mumet, jadi gak semangat, gak pengen ngapa2in. Ck. Kalo bisa break dulu dah, setelah kepalaku gak mumet baru deh lanjut lagi. Pathetic thinker. Harusnya jadi hari yang bikin deg deg plas, malah bikin deg deg nyes *apaseh*. Mana habis lebaran Idul Fitri lagi. Harusnya kan hati berbunga2 lah. Ini malah berbangke2. Ck.

But anyway, happy Eid mubarak yaaa. Minal aidzin walfa idzin. Mohon maaf lahir batin. Sapa tau tulisan2ku ini ada yang bikin nyesek hati. Mana kita tau kan yaa.. Pokoknya kamu maafin aku, aku juga maafin kamu. Impas dah kita. Hehehe.

Menuju big wedding emank adaaa aja masalah. Ada yang ngesms aku pake kata 'sayang' lah. Trus si Popeye dikirim foto mantannya terdahulu lah. Ck. Rasanya tuh bikin kepalaku jadi...kempes. OMG. What the fu*k is she doing? (Im pretty sure it's her). Wanna remind ma' husband about you? Oh, come on, girl. Grow up. We're adult now.

Menuju big wedding itu selalu ada pertengkaran. Kecil ato gede. But in here, between Popeye n' I, we have big problem. As usual. But in ending part, there is luv between us. As usual. Berantem2 trus baekan, baekan2 trus berantem. Sick of it. Yaaah, bumbu2 cinta lah kata orang.

Anyway, harusnya aku yang jelita ini *prot* dipingit kayak calon pengantin2 lainnya. Cuman karena mau ngejar pendadaran + wisuda, aku harus balik lagi ke Samarinda. Ck. Im tired. But I have to. Gak papa lah jauh dari keluarga yang penting selesaikan pendidikan di sini dulu. And then, back again to Batulicin ~

Mudah2n aja semuanya berjalan dengan lancar dah. Jalan menuju big wedding, special day, big day. Aminn...

Di dapur belakang bikin makanan ~

kumpul2 keluarga

bikin bunga rampaay ~

ngobrol2, gosip2 n'rame banget :)

'behantaran' day

N' alhamdulillah, everything is clear. Yang tadinya hari2 sebelum 'behantaran', cuaca panaaass buanget. No rain at all. But once more, alhamdulillah when everybody was coming, suddenly rain was coming too. Barakallah ~

Mudah2an orang2 di sekitarku (keluarga besar, orang2 terdekat, temen2, tetangga dll) diberikan kesehatan, panjang umur de el el. So, ntar bisa datang ke acara akad nikah+resepsiku n' Popeye. N' finally everything will be clear, hehe.

Yaah, Im the last child in ma' family, the last niece in ma' big family, the last cousin in ma' big family too, n' I hope it will be the great big wedding party ever. Amiin...

Innalilllah...

Gini nih rasanya sakit ditinggalin. Selalu teringat momen2 dia masih ada di sini. But, well, life must go on. Cuman rasanya gimana yahh. Masih teringat kala dia duduk di teras dan menoleh ketika aku buka pintu. Tapi sekali lagi, I have to let her go. Because this is the best part. 

Hitam.

Lahir dengan sehat walafiat beserta tiga saudaranya. Actually, I didn't expect her along time ago. But, in fact, she makes me smile. She makes me realized that: something that is not us expected, it will be the best choice. Then, yepp! I luv her. When she was sick, aku temenin si Hitam sambil kipas2in badannya. Takutnya dia kepanasan. Biarlah apa kata orang. I don't care. Yang penting aku ada di saat kamu susah, Tam.

Sampe sekarang aku gak tau apa sakit si Hitam. Katanya dia 'ketulangan' (kejadian dimana tulang ikan nyangkut di tenggorokan, n' bikin sakit klo nelen air liur), ada juga yang bilang klo dia termakan hewan yang udah diracuni (kayak alm. Hitam Juniour), apalagi dia lagi hamil. Badannya kurus banget. Aku jadi nyesal waktu kasih obat ke Hitam. Bikin dia tambah parah n' menderita. Mana si Popeye ngomel2 lagi gara2 aku terlalu care banget ama si Hitam. Ck. He didn't understand me, Tam. How fond I am with you. Bayangin, dari dia kecil, tahun 2010, aku kenal si Hitam. Gak mungkin kan aku gak care of her? Ck. Pathetic Popeye. Hate him.

But alhamdulillah, dia udah pulang dengan tenang. Tadi malam pas orang lagi teraweh.

Hope you will get peace in there, Tam. Forgive ma' family, ma' husband n' I. I luv you, Tam...

Oya, ada kucing kecil yang selalu nempel ke Hitam kemana2. She likes her grandchild. Waktu si Hitam dikubur, gak jauh ada suara ngeong2, si Belang. Kucing kecil yang selalu ikut kemana pun Hitam pergi. Mungkin kucing ini nganggap si Hitam likes her mom. Pity... Don't worry, Tam, I'll take care of her in here.

Klo dipikir2, dulu waktu aku n' Popeye masih jadi temen, setiap dia nyatain cinta ke aku selalu kutolak. The reason is I don't wanna falling in luv again. Lucu. Furthermore, I was falling in luv with him actually. Every time when he was calling me, ma' heart was beating. Fu*k! I luv him. But, I was prestige. Yeah, you know lahh. A girl.

So, this make me remember one song from Demi Lovato, give your heart a break. Gue bingits kata anak alay *halah*. Ntar senyum2 sendiri, trus ketawa2 sendiri. Trus ujung2nya nyanyi. Trus mandi..(haloooh, apa hubungannya kaleeee). Ne karena dari tadi aku belum mandi, hehehe. Padahal, si Popeye ntar lagi jemput mo jalan nyari sesuatu. Ck. A girl.

Demi Lovato

Give your heart a break

The day I first met you
You told me you’d never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven’t I passed the test
When will you realise
Baby, I’m not like the rest

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There’s no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There’s just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break

‘Cause you’ve been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can’t disguise
Don’t wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There’s just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh babe
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you’d never fall in love

Yuhuuuhh ~

I'm coming again! This time I wanna share how happy I am now ( dengan perut keroncongan yang menahan lapar, dahaga n' nafsu *halah* puasa cuuy). Setelah hunting foto2 prewedding di Angsana Beach (finally!), lumayan lega juga ni hati. Soalnya kemaren2 waktu di Samarinda selalu ngajakin ma' lovely husband kesana buat foto2. Alhamdulillah ~ Finally, I got it!

Perjalanan menuju kesana dari Batulicin sih hampir 2 jam. N' jalan masuk menuju pantai Angsana pun ternyata jauh banget. Dikelilingi hutan sawit. Ck! Aku gak sempat took some photos because I was carsick. OMG. Don't ask me! Actually, kami kesana dengan temen2 juga. Berenam. N' I like it. That was fun for me (although I really didn't enjoy it: carsick). Gimana mau jadi rich woman kalo naek mobil aja udah mabok =_="

Sebenarnya sih si Popeye gak bisa difoto. Klo difoto pasti bawaannya canggung n' always bad. But don't judge us because we are different (colour). I really don't care of it! Yang penting: I luv him. Mo orang ngomong: gileee lu, ndroo! item banget! *anjrit* Should I care about it?! Not at all.

But, thanks a lot dah buat temen2 yang udah mau fotoin diriku n' ma' lovely husband. Thanks a lot juga dah buat all of you yang udah mau nemenin n' agak2 pengen juga foto romantis *pedetingkatdewa*

Thanks to you: Adi yang udah rela2 datang dari pulau Kotabaru, Surya, Viska n' Ayu. I really appreciate you, guys!