Innalilllah...

Gini nih rasanya sakit ditinggalin. Selalu teringat momen2 dia masih ada di sini. But, well, life must go on. Cuman rasanya gimana yahh. Masih teringat kala dia duduk di teras dan menoleh ketika aku buka pintu. Tapi sekali lagi, I have to let her go. Because this is the best part. 

Hitam.

Lahir dengan sehat walafiat beserta tiga saudaranya. Actually, I didn't expect her along time ago. But, in fact, she makes me smile. She makes me realized that: something that is not us expected, it will be the best choice. Then, yepp! I luv her. When she was sick, aku temenin si Hitam sambil kipas2in badannya. Takutnya dia kepanasan. Biarlah apa kata orang. I don't care. Yang penting aku ada di saat kamu susah, Tam.

Sampe sekarang aku gak tau apa sakit si Hitam. Katanya dia 'ketulangan' (kejadian dimana tulang ikan nyangkut di tenggorokan, n' bikin sakit klo nelen air liur), ada juga yang bilang klo dia termakan hewan yang udah diracuni (kayak alm. Hitam Juniour), apalagi dia lagi hamil. Badannya kurus banget. Aku jadi nyesal waktu kasih obat ke Hitam. Bikin dia tambah parah n' menderita. Mana si Popeye ngomel2 lagi gara2 aku terlalu care banget ama si Hitam. Ck. He didn't understand me, Tam. How fond I am with you. Bayangin, dari dia kecil, tahun 2010, aku kenal si Hitam. Gak mungkin kan aku gak care of her? Ck. Pathetic Popeye. Hate him.

But alhamdulillah, dia udah pulang dengan tenang. Tadi malam pas orang lagi teraweh.

Hope you will get peace in there, Tam. Forgive ma' family, ma' husband n' I. I luv you, Tam...

Oya, ada kucing kecil yang selalu nempel ke Hitam kemana2. She likes her grandchild. Waktu si Hitam dikubur, gak jauh ada suara ngeong2, si Belang. Kucing kecil yang selalu ikut kemana pun Hitam pergi. Mungkin kucing ini nganggap si Hitam likes her mom. Pity... Don't worry, Tam, I'll take care of her in here.

Suka banget deh nonton youtube yang ngejelasin ciri2 ato khas *halah* pribadi mereka sendiri. Rata2 sih pake Bahasa Inggris. Mayan ngerti sih. Daripada gak sama sekali kan yaah... Itu juga yang bikin aku pengen ngejelasin fakta2 tentang diriku ini. Actually, it's aib. Cuman sisi positifnya aja kusebutin. Hahaha. N' berhubung malu majang di depan kamera sambil cuap2, aku cuman mention di blog doank.

1. I luv music. RnB, Hip hip hureey (maaf, kebiasaan) hip hop, jazz, rock, pop, disco. N' it's all from Barat yeeh~. Bukannya aku gak cinta lagu bangsa sendiri, cuman aku lagu2 barat punya nilai tersendiri buat aku. Yahh, sekalian nambah2 wawasan + ningkatkan English skill laaa.

2. I'm fussy.

3. I'm cheer up.

4. I'm selfish (sometimes towards ma' husband, hehe).

5. I'm kindly.

6. I'm humorous.

7. I'm romantic.

But...

8. I luv blue.

5. I luv writing, reading, watching n' singing.

6.I luv sky.

7. I luv cat.

8. I luv art.

9. I luv clean up.

10. I luv stay in ma' bedroom.

11. I luv fantasized.

12. I luv photograph.

13. I luv beach.

14. I luv green environment. 

15. I luv travelling.

16. I luv walking.

Yaah, that's all. Yang penting kan tau beberapa bagian. Daripada gak ada sama sekali. Hehe.

Klo dipikir2, dulu waktu aku n' Popeye masih jadi temen, setiap dia nyatain cinta ke aku selalu kutolak. The reason is I don't wanna falling in luv again. Lucu. Furthermore, I was falling in luv with him actually. Every time when he was calling me, ma' heart was beating. Fu*k! I luv him. But, I was prestige. Yeah, you know lahh. A girl.

So, this make me remember one song from Demi Lovato, give your heart a break. Gue bingits kata anak alay *halah*. Ntar senyum2 sendiri, trus ketawa2 sendiri. Trus ujung2nya nyanyi. Trus mandi..(haloooh, apa hubungannya kaleeee). Ne karena dari tadi aku belum mandi, hehehe. Padahal, si Popeye ntar lagi jemput mo jalan nyari sesuatu. Ck. A girl.

Demi Lovato

Give your heart a break

The day I first met you
You told me you’d never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven’t I passed the test
When will you realise
Baby, I’m not like the rest

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There’s no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There’s just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

Don’t wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you’re scared it’s wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There’s just one life to live
And there’s no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break

‘Cause you’ve been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can’t disguise
Don’t wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There’s just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh babe
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you’d never fall in love

Yuhuuuhh ~

I'm coming again! This time I wanna share how happy I am now ( dengan perut keroncongan yang menahan lapar, dahaga n' nafsu *halah* puasa cuuy). Setelah hunting foto2 prewedding di Angsana Beach (finally!), lumayan lega juga ni hati. Soalnya kemaren2 waktu di Samarinda selalu ngajakin ma' lovely husband kesana buat foto2. Alhamdulillah ~ Finally, I got it!

Perjalanan menuju kesana dari Batulicin sih hampir 2 jam. N' jalan masuk menuju pantai Angsana pun ternyata jauh banget. Dikelilingi hutan sawit. Ck! Aku gak sempat took some photos because I was carsick. OMG. Don't ask me! Actually, kami kesana dengan temen2 juga. Berenam. N' I like it. That was fun for me (although I really didn't enjoy it: carsick). Gimana mau jadi rich woman kalo naek mobil aja udah mabok =_="

Sebenarnya sih si Popeye gak bisa difoto. Klo difoto pasti bawaannya canggung n' always bad. But don't judge us because we are different (colour). I really don't care of it! Yang penting: I luv him. Mo orang ngomong: gileee lu, ndroo! item banget! *anjrit* Should I care about it?! Not at all.

But, thanks a lot dah buat temen2 yang udah mau fotoin diriku n' ma' lovely husband. Thanks a lot juga dah buat all of you yang udah mau nemenin n' agak2 pengen juga foto romantis *pedetingkatdewa*

Thanks to you: Adi yang udah rela2 datang dari pulau Kotabaru, Surya, Viska n' Ayu. I really appreciate you, guys!